This morning I have my first doctor's appointment in forever. And I am terrified. I am not really sure what I'm afraid of. That he'll tell me I'm the least healthy person in the world and I'll die on Tuesday? That he'll yell at me for never going to the doctor? That he'll be all doctory? The last time I saw a doctor (who wasn't a birth control prescribing girly doctor) was when I split my knee open. And I wasn't even going to go then. I was in my bathroom trying to push the fatty tissue back into my knee and pondering if I could use scotch tape instead of medical tape to put it all back together. And I called a friend to see if this was wise. And he said that if I was not at the ER when he got there, he was sending an ambulance for me. I needed six stitches and the doctor said scotch tape would NOT have worked.
I just come from a long line of folks who believe you can walk it off. Anything. Sprained ankles, kidney stones, shredded chins & knees. Though, Mom's gotten much better. Especially with the heart attack and all. The poor thing is even getting a colonoscopy today. Which will be far worse than my little wimpy physical, I'm sure. GO Mommy! So I will try and think of her. And suck it up. And go. Think happy thoughts for me. And Mom.
Update: I am a total pussy. The doctor's visit was a piece of cake. He was very nice and seemed intelligent and thorough. And apparently my medical history forms were very detailed (thanks for letting me know my maternal great-grandmother had type 1 diabetes, Mom). He even said I was one of the healthier people he's seen. Though I won't have my blood test results for a couple of weeks. But it was a good visit. He seemed a bit taken aback by my utter lack of doctor's visits in the past. But was pretty understanding about it. Though I did not tell him the above scotch tape tale. Might've pushed him over the edge. He also seemed to grasp my problems with insomnia and my weight and was not horrified by me at all. So that kinda rocked. Sheena recommended him so go her. And I would be more than happy to recommend him to anyone looking for a doctor in New York. Of course, I now have recommendations for dermatologists (you really should go about once a year), opthomologists (you really should have your eyes checked every few years or so), gynecologist (I'm looking for a new one) and dieticians (because my weight hasn't caused me health problems yet, but can in the future). So I have to get my courage up to make all those calls. Oh my. It is nice to finally be using my big piles of health insurance...
