Today I got laid off. And, it kinda sucks in a way. I know it's not something I can take personally like a firing, but it still feels like rejection. Plus, I haven't been unemployed in forever. I have to find a job now. I don't have any kind of security. Financially I am not prepared for this with too little savings and too much debt (much like almost everyone else in the world). And my routine and a HUGE part of my life totally changed today. Even though no one else's did. So it's weird. And I kinda want to cry. But I haven't yet. I'm sure I will. But not yet.
But, this is also probably the best case scenario for me. I hated my job. I hated it for years and years. I just never got my shit together enough to go out and find another job. They gave me a small severance package, so I have a little cushion before I'm out on the street. I can take some time to really look for something I might enjoy. And that's such a good thing for me. This is a kick in the pants I need. And I just need to really take advantage of it. It also helps that I have awesome people. Mom has really been there for me. And so many people came and hung out with me between being escorted out of the building (gotta love The Man) and my appointment with my reading buddy. And lots of folks have already called to offer any help they can and to see if I'm okay. Muppet's got a spare room if it comes to that (and she knows the cats and I are a package deal). It's going to be okay. I just have to get over the initial shock and the dread of how much of a pain in the ass it's going to be to find a job. And I think I can do that.
But if y'all know of any jobs out there that I'd be great for, let me know!!!!
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